Now that all of the pre transplant "work up" and evaluation is complete, things have slowed down a bit. I hesitate to say it out loud, but it was almost boring for a bit yesterday. I don't know if boring is good or not. I certainly appreciate the lack of medical drama from Parson --but in the boring moments, my mind goes places that it should not.
I got a great reminder of where my mind needs to dwell in those boring moments. My dear friend gave me a plaque that says "LET YOUR FAITH BE BIGGER THAN YOUR FEAR".
In thinking about faith, I think a lot about a BIG faith that is mentioned so many times throughout scripture. A David & Goliath big... A Daniel in the lions den big... A Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego big... A Moses big... Those fellas had to have been scared out of their minds in the midst of their circumstances. Definitely no shortage of fear in their stories. They certainly could have let their minds wander to the "boring", fearful places, but instead they held on to a BIG faith that carried them beyond their circumstances.
You know, there is no shortage of fear in my current circumstances. But the same BIG faith of David, Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach, Abednego and Moses is mine too. The fear is real & the faith is too. I can allow my mind to wander into boring fear, or I can claim BIG faith.
When I look around-- I have got a lot to be thankful for. I am not in a burning pit. A lion isn't gonna eat me for lunch. There are no burning bushes on my path. I do have a big giant to take down, but I have a BIG faith and confidence in God's plan.