The Blessing

After 128 days at Texas Children's Hospital I can confidently tell you that I have discovered that the blessing is in the waiting. 

With each new shift change, I continue to meet amazing, powerful, strong and committed folks who take care of my child (and me).  The people here are second to none. 

Whether it has been performing a life saving measure to keep Parson alive or bringing me a piece of homemade cake from home that their momma made (with a glass of milk) - my friends here really make this journey so much more bearable. 

Now, that being said, I am tired of waiting and I am SO ready to "get the show on the road". Honestly, it is quite impressive/embarrassing how "bipolar" the waiting game has proven to be for me.  It would really be amazing if someone could "get into my head" and see just how quickly my emotions swing from peaceful and patient one moment, to anxious and impatient only two seconds later.  

I find great comfort in the story of Abraham in Hebrews 6. God made him a promise and made good on that promise in His perfect time. I am pretty sure that Abraham probably got tired of waiting and was a bit "bipolar" in his confidence during the waiting.  In the scripture there is a full assurance in the end, so in the meantime I am reminded to be an imitator of those that have gone before me (vs 12).  Abraham's story encourages me to hold fast to the hope set before me.

Abraham was a boss at the waiting game. God promised him green valleys and flowing rivers, but Abraham had to wait awhile for the promises to be revealed. Hmmm- I'm feeling a lot like that guy. Certainly seems like God revealed himself to Abraham while he was on the journey rather than a big reveal at the final destination. 

The last 11 months certainly make me confident that life is so much more about the journey rather than the destination.  Just as He did for Abraham, God will show me the unchangeable character of His purpose - in His time. While I wait, He will be the anchor of my soul (vs 19). 

Today I am so thankful for the blessing of the beautiful people that I have met all along this waiting journey so far. Because when it is all said and done, I know that this journey is about SO much more than new lungs for Parson. 

"And so it was that she, having waited long and endured patiently, realized and obtained what God had promised" - Hebrews 6:15 (Jenn's New Living translation)